Glo Ria

you wanna know what's worse than a club hook up (making out only!) and finding out he is a sloppy kisser and that he's only a freshman??

seeing him the next day at the dining hall and finding out that he might live somewhere in your building or somewhere close.

ew.
what the fuck am i doing with my life?
god i wish i was drunk enough last night to not remember him.


but at the same time, i have to laugh at myself. last night was...interesting to say the least. hahaha.

oh, and i got called a sexy bitch. not at the club though. on the phone. i don't know if i was supposed to take that as a compliment or take offense. because on one hand i got called sexy. but on the other hand i got called a bitch and i don't know what he meant by that. Hrmm (ponder). Okay, I'm overanalyzing this.

So, this weekend was our fall break. I had no plans to go back home but I ended up going anyway. I got home around 9:30 PM and had some good ol' home made Korean cooking. I haven't had Korean food in about 2 months and I won't lie...it was pretty dank. I love my brother; instead of going out with his friends, he waited all day for me to come home so we could chill.

Had a 29459488 hour long talk with my family...had some ups and downs. The major part of the talk had to do with my brother and college. My poor brother :[ He's not sure what he wants to do with his life and I feel like my parents are pressuring him to choose when in fact he CAN go in undecided. Then there's the whole issue with if he is actually gonna be able to get into a college. Anywho, I tried to talk some sense into my parents and then I tried my best in reassuring my brother that it was alright that he wasn't sure about...anything.

On Saturday, Jacki, Sparkles III (aka Scott) and I went to On the Border and had us some Mexican food. It was my first time meeting Sparkles so it was interesting. I'm still not sure about him as I was with Sparkles I & II but I do have 2 more times to hang out with him before I can say anything for sure. I saw Sarah, Crystal, Sean and Muzz. It was chill. I tagged along with my brother and I went to visit everyone at church and just watched them practice and junk. We ended the night going to IHOP and then went our separate ways.

On Sunday morning, my parents and I went up to Asheville to visit the Biltmore House. And OH MY GOD....that house is HUGE and not to mention GORGEOUS. Scratch that...all of ASHEVILLE is gorgeous. Kinda makes me think twice about living in Charleston/Chicago (lol). We had lunch at The Stable Cafe which is part of the house. It used to be a stable but they turned it into a restaurant. My parents then got to taste different wine at the Winery (so not fair. all i got was grape juice). They then proceeded to buy 4 different bottles of wine. Anywho, Sunday was a good day.

Now, I'm back at school. I'm a little sad though. Fall break is technically not over until Tuesday but Joyce and I came back earlier because we had to drop off her cousin in Cary and her parents didn't want to make a second trip out this way. This morning my dad slipped me 25 dollars on top of the 100 they gave me yesterday. I felt bad...they should probably be saving up for themselves. My brother got up earlier so we could get some food at McD's and drop me off at Joyce's.

I kinda wish I didn't go home because I miss it and everything about it terribly now that I'm back at school. But at the same time I'm really glad I got to go because I haven't been since I came to school (Heck, I haven't left Greenville since I moved in!!). Apparently there's 5 more weeks of school before Thanksgiving break. Sigh. That's a long time. All I need to do is concentrate on my studies and do well (Easier said than done). Until then, I'll be counting down the days....

1) I hate how you have absolutely no emotions. You know how you said that some of your friends called you heartless? Who knows? Maybe they were joking? But I sure as hell am beginning to think that you really don't have a heart. Oh and I don't know where you get the idea that being brutally "honest" is not talking shit but where I'm from that's talking MAJOR SHIT. AND I don't like how you feel the need to voice your opinion here and there but if you have nothing good to say, don't say it at all. I feel like we can be good friends but then sometimes we have our moments. And I feel like the reason behind that is because of her. You confuse me.

2) Why the hell are you so depressed all the time? I don't fucking care about camp or the fucking mountains. I mean, I'm sure they're great, but seriously....get the FUCK over it. You're such a Debbie Downer sometimes. I try my best to make you feel better but A PERSON CAN ONLY DO SO FUCKING MUCH! And why the hell do you think you're so much better! In my HONEST opinion, I think I AM better than YOU. I come from an educated background, my parents are smart, I'm from the CITY where there are more than just redneck people, my friends are SMART AS HELL and I DO NOT TALK FUNNY! So THERE! And just because you're angry at me doesn't mean that you can't acknowledge my presence.

3) You're just straight up fucking dumb. I can't believe I called you my friend. You overreact to every fucking little thing. Even your own sister thought you were a bitch this past weekend. KARMA is a BITCH isn't it.

4) I strip you of the title BFF. How can you be so selfish? This whole weekend was supposed to be about you and me. And you turned it all around and made it about you and your ex. ARE YOU SERIOUS? I am NOT DOWN WITH THAT! And you brought the white sister and dragged her into your stupid shit too? WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU? OF COURSE I'M MAD AT YOU!!! WHY THE FUCK WOULD I BE ALRIGHT WITH THIS? I definitely had doubts about our friendship this past summer because you didn't pull through when I needed you the most. But I let it go because I knew you were anal about certain things. But NO. I was right ALL along. You are SELFISH. I guess we can still be just friends....

5) I cringe when you pout and purse your lips in all your stupid myspace pictures. You think you're hot but honestly when I first met you, I thought you were kinda....unattractive. Stop trying to be someone you're not. You need better self-esteem too.

6) You're just a bitch. That's it. And the fact that you know you are and don't care worries me. Oh, and how the fuck are YOU gonna be a nurse when you have absolutely ZERO social skills and you're such a cold person??!!! AND GERIATRICS??? Never would I let you take care of MY parents.

"I got 99 problems but a bitch ain't one!"


I'm not gonna let this bitch bring down my day! That is all.

If I had to describe this weekend in one word, it would be IN-FUCKING-SANE! hahaha. It was seriously the most fun I've had in weeks. Katherine's sister, Meredith and a bunch of her friends came down on Friday to see the game on Saturday. So Joyce, Katherine, Laken and I went out to dinner with 6 other people to Chili's. While we were there, we bumped into Gerard, Sapan, and Freddy and their group of people. After waiting for about an hour for a table, we finally sat down and got some food. Kat, Joyce, Laken and I decided that we were gonna head up to U.Manor to hang out with the boys and some of their friends.

So we get to U.Manor, and we end up having a pretty damn good time. No huge party or anything just straight up fucking chill. A little drink here and there and that was it. I ended up coming back and going to bed at 4.

Saturday was the big game against UNC. Laken called me and told me that Karrie and Megan were coming down from Mt. Olive to hang out with us. They came and picked me up and went back to Sunchase. We watched some Grey's Anatomy and ate pizza while checking online every once in a while to make sure that we were winning (which we did!! 34-31!! a CLOSE one! WHEW!!) After finding out our victory, we started drinking a whole lot of shots and mixed drinks. Brittany, Michelle and Lindsey came back and we were all just having a good time. 4 of Laken's guys friends who go to NC State decided to come down and party with us. And Sapan and his gang ended up coming over around 3. Anywho, some shit went down and one of John's threw up and then Sapan threw up. Michelle became this big anal bitch and Brittany is just a bitch at times to begin with. And yeah. You can only imagine what happend after that.

And now, Michelle is blaming this shit on me. Which is whatever, but I hate the fact that she's talking about this crap behind my back. I'm FUCKING RIGHT HERE! TALK TO ME! Anywho, I hate this awkwardness and I'm not even sure what's going on between Brittany and I. But, hopefully everything will be figured out because I hate being like this.

Moral of the story: Incredible weekend. But I sometimes fucking hate girls....with exception of a few. I hate fucking girl drama. dammit.
oh. ECU>UNC (it's basic math).

disclaimer: So yeah, I did drink 3 days in a row and this whole entry kinda makes me sound like an alcoholic but I swear I'm not. I'm just a college student and I practically only throw down on weekends :)

Labor Day weekend came and went. And that means summer is truly over in my books. This past weekend was interesting to say the least. I don't think I've ever been so disappointed in friends in my life. But now that it's over, I can finally concentrate on my studies.

Because I was busy being the procrastinator that I am, I have fallen behind on readings for all my classes. Since this Tuesday, all I've been doing is going to class and coming back to my room and reading until bedtime. I haven't even been able to workout in almost a week and I feel so heavy. When I do find time to go to the rec, my excuse is that I'm too tired. Hopefully I'll be caught up by this weekend.

On a brighter note, I've had contact with the mother and brother a few times. It's been pleasant talking to her and my brother. I love that kid. I don't know what I would do without him. There would be no balance in my family especially between my mother and I. My dad is okay I guess. No good or bad news about him so I assume he's alive and well.

I was pretty sad when I had to come back to school because I felt like I was leaving all my friends (even though they're all pretty much away from home too). We've become so close this summer especially Jacki and I. I miss that girl. She's been there for me since junior year and I really don't know what I would do if she were to leave this state...or country...or yeah. But anywho, my point is I'm glad I'm back at school now and I don't have to deal with the family drama since they are almost 300 miles away from me. Yeah, it does suck that I can't see Jacki whenever I want but I suppose that why I have a phone, right?

Oh my god. I'm so boring. God, can you please send someone or something my way that can put a little entertainment in my life? A job would be nice. That is all. Thank you. Amen.

So pretty much this summer has been interesting...err, scratch that, IN-fucking-SANE! I was out of the house for about a month and pretty much blowing my money on things that would keep me alive (i.e.-food, toiletries, everyday necessities, etc.). And now, I'm back home and things have gotten a lot better but I still feel tension between my mom and I. My "punishment" is to pay for school on my own now. I applied for a loan and my status for that is "pending" which isn't a good thing because my tuition is due by the 15th (next Wednesday).

On top of this, this douchebag pseudo-kidnapped me. Long story short: Douchebag takes me out for dinner because we haven't seen each other in apparently in 7 months (not that I'm counting...he told me it was 7). Decides we should take one car and go and "talk". Basically tries to force me to go out with him and when I ask him to take me back to my car, he decides to take me into the ghetto. Don't get back to my car until almost 2 hours later. Haven't talked to him since. Don't want to. And my brother and a few friends wanna kill him. The end.

AND...I just found out not to long ago that a close friend of mine is not returning to school this semester because his parents have decided to turn into douchebags as well and force him to move to Texas with them. Uhm, HELLO? SCHOOL STARTS IN ABOUT 2 WEEKS! WHY ARE YOU GONNA TELL HIM THIS THE WEEK BEFORE HE HAS TO MOVE IN????

Thank you JESUS today is FINALLY Friday. This week has gone by way too slow. Tomorrow Jacki, Sparkles II (Franklin) and I are heading up to Chapel Hill to help Ian unpack and party with some other Summer Group (yeahh..that sounds gay. we need a better name. perhaps, Blakeney Crew?) members.

Speaking of Sparkles II, I'm still unsure. It's only because I worry for you and you're my sister. I'll try and be better about the whole "interrogation" thing that I apparently do.

So basically this whole entry comes down to this question: God, seriously, what's up? Why are you putting all these OVERWHELMING things on me this summer? I know you wouldn't possibly put me through things I couldn't get through but seriously, WHY? WHY????

sigh. I need a sign.

ps--i hate being a bootycall. i'm not your rebound girl or the girl you call whenever your girlfriend is out of town. so stop. if you think you're scoring points with me, you're dead wrong. think again punk.

Life's Little Instructions

Sing in the shower.
Treat everyone you meet like you want to be treated.
Watch a sunrise at least once a year.
Leave the toilet seat in the down position.
Never refuse homemade brownies.
Strive for excellence, not perfection.
Plant a tree on your birthday.
Learn 3 clean jokes.
Return borrowed vehicles with the gas tank full.
Compliment 3 people every day.
Never waste an opportunity to tell someone you love them.
Leave everything a little better than you found it.
Keep it simple.
Think big thoughts but relish small pleasures.
Become the most positive and enthusiastic person you know.
Floss your teeth.
Ask for a raise when you think you've earned it.
Overtip breakfast waitresses.
Be forgiving of yourself and others.
Say, "Thank you" a lot.
Say, "Please" a lot.
Avoid negative people.
Buy whatever kids are selling on card tables in their front yards.
Wear polished shoes.
Remember other people's birthdays.
Commit yourself to constant improvement.
Carry jumper cables in your truck.
Have a firm handshake.
Send lots of Valentine cards.
Sign them, "Someone who thinks you're terrific."
Look people in the eye.
Be the first to say hello.
Use the good silver.
Return all things you borrow.
Make new friends, but cherish the old ones.
Keep a few secrets.
Sing in a choir.
Plant flowers every spring.
Have a dog. [Or cat :)]
Always accept an outstretched hand.
Stop blaming others.
Take responsibility for every area of your life.
Wave at kids on school busses.
Be there when people need you.
Feed a stranger's expired parking meter.
Don't expect life to be fair.
Never underestimate the power of love.
Drink champagne for no reason at all.
Live your life as an exclamation, not an explanation.
Don't be afraid to say, "I made a mistake."
Don't be afraid to say, "I don't know."
Compliment even small improvements.
Keep your promises no matter what.
Marry for love.
Rekindle old friendships.
Count your blessings.
Call your mother.

"for a long time it seemed to me that life was about to begin--real life. but there was always some obstacle in the way. something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. at last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life. this perspective has helped me to see there is no way to happiness. happiness is the way. so treasure every moment you have and remember that time waits for no one. happiness is a journey, not a destination..."

--souza

I'm so over him. I really wish I could just be friends with him but it's so hard to see him especially when he's with his girlfriend. I still can't believe he left THE shit FOR shit. Okay, that's really mean because I don't know her at all and I shouldn't be calling her shit. BAD GLORIA!

Whoaaa...the song I'm listening to definitely doesn't match what I just wrote. I'm listening to Wait for You by Elliot Yamin. HA. I should be listening to errr...Over It by Katharine McPhee or something like that.

Moving on...I've come to appreciate the single life. I can look, touch and pretty much do whatever the hell I feel like. The problem is I don't. I could but I choose not to. Eh, maybe I'm too lazy? I don't know. I do have morals and I do believe the whole concept of a one-night stand is dumb. Ehh, well maybe it's not...but it's just not for ME. Anywho, my point is I'm content with my life and where I am in it. I don't need a guy to cling on to, make me feel secure and complete my life.

Jacki, her friend Stephanie, Ian and I are going to uptown tonight to go to the Alley Cat. It's supposed to be this rock & roll club. (shrug) No idea so it should be interesting.

And so begins a weekend starting on a Thursday. (Damn, I feel like I should be in Greenville.)

Okay, so seeing as how Jacki is constantly updating 24/7, I had an urge to do so myself. My first year of college is almost over! And I am so psyched (or is it siked?...whatever)!!! I'm imagining summer to be all sorts of fun like going on several roadtrips on a whim, spending money I don't have and should be saving, partying and most likely getting drunk, working lots and lots of hours at the freshy fresh and most likely getting a second job. I'm gonna make sure I'm always busy (especially so I won't have to constantly bump into the mother and "brew up" trouble). OH MY GAWD i'm SO FRIGGIN' EXCITED!

I know I say this now, but towards the end of summer I'm sure I'll get sick of everything because I'll end up not doing anything that I had planned. Then I'll probably say something like, "I can't believe I've spent my whole summer doing that [or nothing, for that matter]. What a waste of my summer!" OH WELL! I'm sure everyone's had that feeling at least ONE summer. I'm just happy now....and this is how I wanna stay for the next few hours. (Sighhhh, I don't wanna study or do anything).

I feel so unproductive today. For the past two days, I've been going to bed at 5 in the morning and getting up anywhere between 12-2. Today, I woke up at 2. And I've just been bumming around for the last 2 hours. I'm pretty sure I smell too. Ick.

Yesterday night Laken, Brittany, and Michelle came over to wake my lazy ass up and we decided to go to the movies because there's nothing better to do in Greenville. We saw The Invisible. It was okay, I guess. The ending was a little disappointing but only because [MAJOR SPOILER COMING UP] the girl ends up dying. BOO YOU WHORE! DON'T DIE! YOU TWO ARE PERFECT FOR EACH OTHER!!! WAKE THE FUCK UP! Even though it would make for a pretty fucked up story if you did live. Ha. Can you imagine going to a party and people asking how you guys met?

"Yeah, she killed me...or thought she killed me but all along I was alive! And then she found my body...."

HAHAHAA. Anywho, I suppose I can't imagine the ending a different way. And besides, the writer/director person made the ending the way it is because that's what they do for a living. Who am I to tell them how to end the movie, right?

Wow, that was so fucking A.D.D. (i'm doing the heart thing with my hands right now, Jacki)

So yeah, I'm gonna go take a shower now and go do something productive because yeahhhh...that's what I should do, right? RIGHT!

YOU CAN DO IT [GLORIA]!!!....ALL NIGHT LONG (tehehe...go waterboy!)

life is bittersweet.


RIP Uncle 07.27.05

First, it was livejournal. Then, it was xanga. and now, it's myspace. Oh my lord. No more journals for me, period.

long time no lj, eh? hey. that kinda rhymed. or not...okay. since i don't wanna do my hw..i did a little survey. i actually thought it was kinda fun, which is really pathetic cause i hate wasting my time doing stupid stuff like that, but eh..whatever. so here it is. my survey. no one even reads my lj, anyways. so eh.

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:	Gloria Kim
Birthday:	April 4, 1988
Birthplace:	Chicago, Illinois
Current Location:	Charlotte, NC
Eye Color:	brown
Hair Color:	dark brown [[everyone likes to call it black, but nooo..it's dark-dark-dark-brown-to-the-point-that-it's-black xD]]
Height:	5' 0"
Right Handed or Left Handed:	right handed
Your Heritage:	korean
The Shoes You Wore Today:	steve madden
Your Weakness:	uhhh...many things
Your Fears:	ditto
Your Perfect Pizza:	ehhh i'll eat anything...i don't really like hawaiian though
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	graduate junior year without killing myself
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	haha
Thoughts First Waking Up:	tooooooooo early!!!!!
Your Best Physical Feature:	uhhhhhhhh idk
Your Bedtime:	whenever i feel tired and sleepy
Your Most Missed Memory:	chicago friends & some family
Pepsi or Coke:	coke
MacDonalds or Burger King:	burger king
Single or Group Dates:	depends
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	nestea...none of that sweet tea stuff in the south [[that stuff is nasty and way too sweet]]
Chocolate or Vanilla:	why not both?
Cappuccino or Coffee:	hmmm...that's hard, but coffee
Do you Smoke:	no
Do you Swear:	yes
Do you Sing:	oh yes. in the shower and off key.
Do you Shower Daily:	yes
Have you Been in Love:	no
Do you want to go to College:	surely
Do you want to get Married:	not now, but i'm sure i will later
Do you belive in yourself:	at times
Do you get Motion Sickness:	sometimes...like when i'm on the plane going to korea..wooweee just hand me a few pills and i'm out
Do you think you are Attractive:	no
Are you a Health Freak:	at times
Do you get along with your Parents:	ditto
Do you like Thunderstorms:	sometimes
Do you play an Instrument:	used to..and i guess i still do
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	no
In the past month have you Smoked:	no
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	no
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	no
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	yes
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	yes
In the past month have you been on Stage:	no
In the past month have you been Dumped:	no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	no
Ever been Drunk:	not quite drunk...maybe a little buzzed
Ever been called a Tease:	i don't think so..
Ever been Beaten up:	no
Ever Shoplifted:	no
How do you want to Die:	peacefully in my sleep
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	something...
What country would you most like to Visit:	i've got many in mind
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:	any color is fine with me
Favourite Hair Color:	any, as long as it isn't too exotic
Short or Long Hair:	don't care, preferably short
Height:	no need to worry. everyone is taller than me xD
Weight:	don't care...ehhh but i don't like really really beefy guys. they kinda scare me.
Best Clothing Style:	like i really care...how about normal
Number of Drugs I have taken:	0 but did you know alcohol is considered a drug..yep yep
Number of CDs I own:	never bothered counting
Number of Piercings:	2..one on each ear
Number of Tattoos:	0
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	i try to not regret things that i've done
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

You know what? I had a pretty damn decent day. I did, I swear. I was especially psyched about Jacki getting a B on her Senior Exit paper. I even got myself to eat dinner and shower early so I would be able to do my homework. Then, as soon as I start my homework, a good friend of mine calls and tells me that a dear teacher of mine needs some paperwork from me tomorrow. Now, I had no idea what she was talking about so I tell this friend of mine, "What paper work?" and she responds by saying, "You know, the paper to go to Greensboro, like medical liability insurance and crap." Hrmmm..it turns out that my dear teacher needs that by tomorrow and I don't even have those papers. So what is a girl supposed to do? Yeah, anyways, my point is, now, I'm upset because I wish my teacher or friend had explained these "papers" to me earlier. Well, I tried not to be so upset, but we all know I can't hide my feelings/facial expression/vocal tone very well. I don't know. I don't even know. I don't even know why I'm typing this up. God, I hate bitching/whining/ranting (which is ironic, cause I'm so good at it) God, I wish I was able to hide my emotions and keep them to myself. Okay. I'm done.

I got searched today during first block! I was totally minding my own business and copying this dude's chem. homework and then bam these SWAT/FBI-like people came through the door that connects Mr. Howard & Mrs. Ganfield's class. I was freakin' out. No joke. Dude I was tired as hell because I had 2 hours of sleep. But all was good. I got some money taken away because I had over 50 dollars, but I got it back, so it's all G. hehe. Wow. I can now say that I, Gloria M. Kim, have officially been searched. What an interesting Wednesday. And I was thinking of skipping today...hrmmm...

I AM SO FREAKIN' HAPPY!!! I GOT A 91 ON THE MATH TEST!! I HAVEN'T GOTTEN A 91 SINCE WELL...FOREVER!! WOOT WOOT!! OKAY. THERE WAS MY UPDATE FOR TODAY.

So........wassup? Yeah. I don't have to go to church today because service and everything was cancelled. Yes. That's right. Because of the weather. Isn't that gay? Oh well. I wasn't really looking forward to going today anyways. Hmmm...in 2 more days, it will be February. Junior year has been CRAPPY. Absolutely CRAPPY. It's been going by slow, but fast. Yeah. I don't know if you guys understand me. I'm kinda tired. LoL. I got like 10 hours of sleep, yet I'm still tired. I think I'm gonna go back to sleep. Goodnight!!

UPDATE xD
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Brad Pitt. Yummy.
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Okay. Update over. Ta-ta. Good day!

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ehh...dunno why I did this. MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!